[You Think You Found it]

[Arbie]

Heaven’s Not Enough
A wolf lay down in the snow as if they were dead. Their head rested between their paws and their eyes were thin slits, but this wolf was far from dying. They slowly raised their head and looked about at the snowy paradise, but she didn’t see what was so nice about it. It was the same as everywhere else, white and bland. She shook the snow off of her brown and grey fur and stood up lazily, stretching her hind legs and then raised her rump in the air, stretching. A heavy sigh escaped her as she looked over No Man’s Land, her eyes set on the river immediately, but she quickly averted her gaze to the Dancing Stars land. Myu wondered if the news about Rhyfel’s death had reached Dancing Stars, she wondered if they even cared, and she snorted angrily at the thought.

Myu turned and began to wonder along the Lined Cliffs again, wanting to reach the top. She had come here more and more often, and every time she did, she found it more easier to find her way about and now where short cuts or crevasses were. She kept her eyes ahead, not daring to look round at the pack lands again.
Myu wished they could come back, she wished she could hear Nessie’s strange voice again, she wished she could feel Rhyfel lick her cheek once more. The thought of it sent goose-bumps along her spine and she quickened her pace, her head held low in case there was a surprise attack, and she narrowed her eyes again. Myu made her way through the snow that almost reached half way up her legs, but she didn’t care. She was going by slowly, but she was determined to reach the top.

Myu stopped suddenly, staring down at the snow in front of her and nudged it away to show a small crevasse. It wasn’t big enough for her to fall through, but it would be a painful surprise. She stepped over it carefully and continued on her way, baring her teeth as she thought of everything that happened since she first came to Falling Moon.
Meeting Duke.
Killing Shadow.
Meeting Rhyfel.
Fighting Sunset.
So much more, and she didn’t regret any of it. She didn’t care about killing Shadow, she didn’t care about the fight with Sunset, she was glad she met Duke and Rhyfel.

It was just the fact she would never touch him again she regretted.
Heaven’s Not Enogh

[Savage]

You can't deny what you see

An tall red orange mass of fur, crept along the cliffs. His black mane ruffling in the gentle winter breeze. He wanted nothing to do with a fight at the moment, even as he spotted Myu, he just hung his head with a sigh. It'd occurred to him, just what he'd done, but he tried not to guilt himself too much into it. His neck was still stiff, from Key's bite into the juggular vein. The wounds had healed over. His green eyes, weren't bright and blinding today, they were dull, and filled with pure emotion.

Were living in a violent society

His weight shifted between paws as he looked over the cliffs. He shook his head as he reached the edge and backed off a bit. His paws stroked the snow around him, as he sat there and thought. His massive maw raised up to the sky and he gave a whine. He'd still felt terrible about the slaughter of Nessie. He winced in a minor pain as he strained his neck to look up at the sky. The blood loss hadn't killed him, but surely the pain would. Granted he was to blame for the rip in his throat. He'd told Key to do it. With a soft sigh he lowered himself to the ground, and rolled onto his right side, so the wound on his neck, lay in the cooling snow.

So tell me what am I supposed to be

[Arbie]

Myu looked round as a new scent filled her nostrils and she spotted Savage easily. A low snarl escaped her, but it died away slowly when she seen that something wasn't right about him. Tilting her head to the right, Myu watched him flop over onto his side and she made her way towards him, frowning. The last time she seen him, he was an insane killing machine almost. She snorted when she came close enough to be heard and looked at his neck, narrowing her eyes.

“What happened to you?” she asked coldly, sitting down on her haunches to show she wasn’t going to attack him. If she did want to kill Savage, she would want to kill him when he wasn’t injured like that. She stayed quiet for a moment, looking up over to see if there was any other wounds, but it seemed the neck wound was the worst.

“And who was it that almost killed you?” she snorted.

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[Savage]

Savage's ears perked and his eyes opened, to see the marvelous wolf, Myu, who probably should have killed him long ago as it was. A smirk cross the male's maw, it was rather a sarcastic smile more the a smirk itself. Savage strained to lift his head. "It was nothing big, a death wish perhaps, but it was Key who did such a job." There was no tone of anger in his once harsh Irish voice. That once harsh tone was gone, his words were an almost whisper, but that was to preserve strength. Either way, his voice was soft, and almost innocent. His upper lip twitched as he laid his head back in the snow. He gave a half whine and groaned. He couldn't complain too much, he only did tell Key to do it. He just wished Key either would have not listened, or finished the job. The snow was cool against his warm wound. Savage thought he'd heard it sizzle, but perhaps he was over-reacting. He drew a deep breath and sighed.
What was that? A tingling feeling came over his ear, it was some what of an annoying numbness. It was aggrivating, to the point where Savage just had to sit up and scratch this burning itch. That's what he'd done, he sat himself up, slowly and painfully, and brought his left hind foot up to his left ear. His nails reached the skin and moved back and foth across the surface. An idiotic smile crossed his face as he brought his foot back down and laid himself back in the snow.

[Arbie]

Key… Oh, he was the one that waltzed up to the mountain when we had Eagle, yeah… I remember him. Myu thought, momentarily distracted and she looked at Savage again.
“You didn’t fight back?” Myu smirked almost mockingly, “And I thought you were powerful… Why ask for death when you can fight your way out of it?” she asked, watching him scratch his ear.

She knew what it was like to have a wound to the neck, she received one when she fought with Sunset and was almost drowned then too. A few near death experiences, but she wondered what made Savage change so drastically. He was a fearsome wolf before, and now he had asked for death. At this thought, Myu wondered what stopped Key from killing Savage completely, but decided to stay quiet. Too much words can kill you, especially with a Falling Moon wolf around.

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[Savage]

Savage glanced at her from the corner of his green eyes. "I couldn't live with it." He said almost inaudibly "I couldn't withstand it anylonger. Myu, you loved Nessie, and I took him away from you, and I just, couldn't and still can't live through that power of such raw emotion." Savage's eyes began to tear, but he fought them back. "I know just what it's like to have someone you love taken away from you, by a brute much like myself." He said recalling the memory of the day his brother, had killed the one brute he'd claimed to love, Savage never really told anyone of it, or that he'd fallen fro a brute. He looked like a mangled carcass laying in the snow, that was waiting to be ripped open, and he felt nearly just the same.

[Arbie]

“I know… Everyone loses something in the end.” She muttered. She wondered who he had lost, but thought that was too personal. She still didn’t like Savage all that much, but she liked him enough to have a small conversation with him. Myu looked out at the pack lands once more, scowling slightly. She thought for a moment.

“I didn’t love Nessie…” she said finally, “He was the one that loved me, it was a twist of fate that I loved another wolf…” she looked at him, “I have a question, who do you love? It’s obvious someone stopped Key from killing you… Surely it was someone precious to you? Or you were precious to them?”

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[Savage]

Savage looked up to her. He feared having his face bashed in, but he smiled and said quietly "Jaeger" His eyes closed at the thought of Jaeger, and with a sigh of happiness, and a sigh of relief, that he'd finally gotten that off of his chest, he sat himself up slowly. At least he'd been able to walk, he hadn't done that in a while as the bite to the juggular could have very well paralyzed him. Savage's heart beat for one reason and one only by this time, and that was Jaeger. Maybe Jaeger did love him back, but even if he didn't his presence was enough to keep Savage strong. The heart wants, what it wants The words of his mother, had passed through his head. She hadn't cared too much he'd fallen for a brute, he recalled her saying it was 'almost kind of cute.' Savage missed her the most, and wanted to be able to find her again one day. If he found her, he'd find his brother, and then, he could prove to him, that though one to fall for a brute, he could kill just as much as his brother. Perhaps that's what the murder streak was. A point to prove. Is that why he slaughtered Nessie? Is that why he'd take out so many wolves and become so heartless?

[Arbie]

Myu stared, totally dumbfounded. Jaeger was a male, Savage was a male… He loved another male? This was a totally new thing for Myu, and she hardly knew how to react to it. She stayed quiet at first, staring at Savage and wondered if she should just walk away.
“You like… Jaeger?” she repeated softly, relaxing slightly, “That’s kind of rare, a male liking another male…”

She trailed off, looking away quickly. This was awkward.
“Why?” she asked, looking at him again. She didn’t see anything wrong with it, she didn’t want anything to do with love anymore, but she was curious about how it all happened.

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[Savage]

Well I very much don't know as to why. Savage said with a laugh, He's just so, different, so violent, yet so caring. Savage said as a numbing feeling rolled through his body. His head became numb and Savage just lay there, against the frozen ground. He almost felt like he was going to die, but he wasn't. The lad went unconious and incoherent, which was probably good for him and his wound. There wasn't much the lad did these days anyway, except lay around like such. Savage's body twitched rapidly and repeatidly, almost like a seizure. Finally it had stopped, and with that he lay silent and still, but breathing.

[Arbie]

Myu nodded softly, watching him. She stayed silent and she stared, but jumped when he began to twitch and Myu got to her feet immediately, what the hell was happening?

"Savage?" she asked urgently, nudging his side gently once it stopped. She wondered what had happened to him, but by no means was she worried. Myu couldn't be worried about anyone but herself. She stepped back, looking down at his body. Why had he collapsed, and what was with the twitching? Lots of questions ran through her mind, and she nudged him again.

[Savage]

His eyes opened slowly as he regained his conciousness. His maw lifted from the ground slowly with his body. His black front paws pawed at his face. He jumped back upon seeing Myu. Savage hadn't lost recolition of where he was, or anything before he'd passed out, but he was merely started by Myu's appearance and her not having her teeth in his throat. Savage looked around, no one else was here, or so he thought.

[Arbie]

"You're okay..." she sighed and looked at the snow in front of her and then looked back at him.
"What happened there?" Myu asked, looking at the wound on his neck again. She wondered if it had something to do with it, but didn't bother asking. She waited for a reply, but was getting impatient after asking all these questions.

Why the hell am I still here? she thought, slowly looking at the snow in front of her again. Myu should have just ignored Savage, she would still have hated him then and she wouldn't be in the awkward position after asking who he loved.

[Savage]

What happened where? He asked cocking his head to the left and raising his right brow in sheer confusion. The wound was blistered and disturbingly disgusting. It looked like there was a slight shade of some green in it, and the bruise around the puncture marks were much more purple then ever. His fur in that area was matted and sticky.

ooc:// ugh my posts are icky

[Arbie]

Myu shook her head angrily, glaring at Savage.
"Forget it, idiot." she said, looking Savage up and down before concentrating on the wound on his neck and stared for a moment before grimacing and she looked away quickly.

Myu hadn't seen a wound like that for a while, and now that she had she wished she never looked. Thinking about Savage's wound made her think of when she killed her sister out of jealousy. Myu snorted and looked at Savage again, concentrating on his face only.
"You were twitching like crazy." She explained, "And you fainted or something… I don't know, I wasn't paying much attention 'till you twitched."